Day Sixty-One with Cancer

Day Sixty-One/Day Forty-Two without Cancer:

Sunday...and I had to sing this morning.  I cannot begin to tell how much anxiety there was this morning.  It was insane.  Everyone kept saying, "What?  Like you haven't done this before?"  I had decided that I was going to speak before my song and for some reason as soon as I walked into the building I was shaking.  It's the first time I had sung since my surgery.  My abdominals didn't seem to be working quite the same.  Yes, I suppose that's because I haven't been allowed to use them for 6 weeks, but it's kind of frightening.  I need to make sure I have breath control.  Thankfully, it went well.  The speaking wasn't great.  I stumbled over my tongue several times, but I was able to get through it.  Dusty came up afterward to lead worship and he started speaking about me, my situation and how much God has gotten me through.  He had to stop because he was going to cry.  Glad he did, cause I would have cried as well.  Service was great.  Our District Superintendent was there and he gave the sermon.  I love when pastors really challenge you and make you think differently about things.  It's exciting.

I was supposed to meet with an old friend after church, but I texted and drove to our meeting spot and never heard back.  So, I ended up heading back to CiCi's pizza to eat with Jay, Jenny, Dusty, Shiloh and Dusty's siblings.  I know I spoke about this in regards to last Thursday, but I really enjoy being with people like them.  The conversation is just always so much fun and I always feel really good when I leave.  They're so uplifting.  While I was there I got a call from Sarah Ruple.  She and Hannah were going to the beach, so I said I'd meet them when I was done.  I never seem to get to hang with the girls, so this was a HUGE blessing to me.  I cannot begin to express how grateful I am to have them in my life.  It's so much fun to be with them and just be silly.  I know I can be me and we can laugh about silly, girly things.  We can laugh as we see guys trying to act cool and impress us...why do there seem to be so many when we get together?  I can't wait until the next time.

Dad made steak for dinner.  That was pretty cool.  Though I can't eat veggies yet, being able to have the meat is enjoyable.  Mom and I spent another evening together.  I think we're back to the point of being ready to get a cute apartment together.  It was a slow evening.  We watched some older food movie.  I remember not really liking it the first time I saw it.  I'm just not a Cathrerine Zeta Jones fan and the guy in it is NOT attractive.  Around eight thirty or so I found Singin' in the Rain on TCM.  Score.  Gene Kelly is so dreamy.  Oh how I wish they made men like him these days.  After that was Fred Astaire and Cyd Charisse in The Band Wagon.  Ok...I wish they made men like Gene Kelly and I wish I were more like Cyd Charisse.  Talk about glamor and legs that went on forever.  It's always been a dream of mine to have nice legs.  Now that my skin seems to be getting a bit better, it seems more attainable.  However, they'd need to be slender and about 4 inches longer.  Oh well.  A girl can dream :)  Simply lovely day.  Hurray!

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Verse of the Day: James 1:2-4