Slacking

I've been seriously slacking as far as the blogging is concerned.  We were in Colorado for a couple of weeks with a really poor wireless connection, then we came back and I was all about making sure everything was prepared for the benefit.  Now the benefit is over and I'm trying to get things ready for my concert at the end of the month, there are lots of birthdays, weddings, graduation parties and funerals.  It's interesting that it seems as though things have gotten busier since I've gotten out of the hospital. 

The reason that I was inspired to blog just now is that I was trying to find some additional songs to complete the set list for the end of the month.  I went back and was looking in the youtube videos of the times that our woship team led the services.  I found one from the beginning of April when we did Healer.  That song was already in my set list for the show, but I went ahead and watched it anyway.  It occured to me that we had just performed this two days after I had gone in for my consult with the gastroenterologist.  I was already stepping out on faith and I knew that whatever was wrong with me,  God was going to heal me from that.  Of course, I had no idea it was going to be cancer, but I knew that I served a God who was (is) bigger than whatever sickness I might be facing.  It was unfortunate to watch the progression of things.  The youtube videos seemed to document me getting increasingly pale and my strength seemed to fade as the weeks went along.  I almost began to weep as I saw the Easter video.  I remember how upset I was that I wouldn't be partaking in any of the Easter food and how uncomfortable I was that day and the next.  The day after Easter was not a good day.  The procedures were awful and painful.  The day following that was the official diagnosis.  Praise the Lord that just four months later, I have gotten a diagnosis, all the follow up testing, surgery, rehabilitation, and held a benefit.  Sooo much has happened in so little time.  Yes, I was basically sick the entire year previous to my diagnosis, but that aside, everything went so quickly.  It is a huge miracle and I thank the Lord for it.  He allowed me to go through it, but still kept me from so much and now something amazing is going to come from it.  Jason and I are working on starting a non-profit so that we'll be able to increase awareness of cancer in young people and provide funds for those who are 30 and under and suffering from cancer.  I hope that through my journey, God can use me to help others who are hurting and confused.  God provides.  He is so good. 

Song of the Day: Healer- this is just the second part of it...it got cut off in the middle
http://www.youtube.com/user/PainesvilleNaz#p/u/27/8FGZ2b6X2ls

Verse of the Day: I took my troubles to the Lord; I cried out to him and he answered my prayer.
Psalm 120:1