Day Three with Cancer

We have arrived at day three.  Now that I know that I have cancer and what exactly is going on in my body, I feel a bit better about certain things that are going on.  I had stopped by the bookstore last night to pick up a couple of books on the subject and while reading a bit today I read a portion about fatigue during treatment.

"Rest: While taking treatment I often felt like a wind-up clock.  I said "wind-up", "not battery-operated".  A battery-operated clock begins losing seconds, then minutes, before it stops; a when a wind-up clock stops, it stops.  It's natural to have very little reserve energy, to be going along fine one minute and then totally beat the next.  Sit down, lie down, and let your clock rewind."

I also LOVE that this book is called "There's No Place Like Hope".  Obviously I was attracted to the title before I realized that I loved the writer.  :)  Anyway, that segment totally described how I was yesterday.  I was going along really well and then BAM!  I totally hit a wall.  In addition to that, my doctor had told me to avoid any strenuous activity because I'm so anemic.  I have to laugh at that because I've found myself getting winded and thinking my heart will pound out of by chest after walking about 20 feet.  I'd hate to think what it would be like with REAL strenuous activity.  LOL.  Hopefully I can start taking my iron again soon, so that we can take care of some of the anemia and I won't get tired and dizzy so quickly.

Today was a nice day.  I was able to sleep in just a bit, which is good, since I keep staying up past my bed time talking to people about all the recent events.  I had music class with the kids and then went to my sister's house during my break and read a little in the new book.  I'm really enjoying the way this woman thinks.  She's got attitude.  Reminds me a bit of myself in that way.  At some point I decided that I'm going to make a cancer line of jewelry.  I've had some stuff to make pendants, but I couldn't decide what exactly I wanted to put on them.  Now I have a pretty good idea of what I want.  I'm also thinking about doing stuff with the faux Pandora beads and making some awareness ribbons.  The idea of shirts also crossed my mind.  At the time I was really only thinking about making a couple for myself, but now I figure, why not make them and sell them.  People buy tons of that stuff at rallys and things.  I was thinking about "I Make Cancer Sexy" or "Who Knew Cancer Could Look This Good".  

I was able to speak with several people today.  I got to have discussions with our secretary, associate pastor, a few parents, and of course Shiloh and Andrea.  I'm so blessed to have them as friends.  Today Andrea gave me a pin that was blessed by the Pope.  Her grandmother wore it when she had cancer, Andi wore it through her cancer, and now I get to wear it through mine.  They are both survivors and I'm gonna be one too.  Actually, according to my new book, I already am.  "...The moment you survive the diagnosis you become a survivor.  The moment your cancer has been detected, your success story begins."

I was able to spend some time with my parents this evening and we worked on my MyChart for the CC. My uncle Dave called from Colorado and I spoke with him for a while.  I've decided that I'm GOING to Colorado this summer.  I don't care if they end up telling me that it's impossible...it's happening.  My primary care physician ended up calling around 9:40pm and asking what exactly was going on.  I told him about it and about my upcoming appointments.  He asked if I'd like the CT's pushed up.  I said I guessed I didn't care, but if I had them earlier then the surgeon would have more time to go over them prior to my consult with him.  He seemed to want it to happen, so he asked me to call him in the morning and we'd get that going.  It was so nice of him to call.  He didn't have to do that.  He's seen me so many times over the past 9 months that I'd think he'd just want to leave me in the hands of the other doctors at this point.  I'll have to send him a thank you card or something.

All in all, not a lot really "happened" today, but it was a good day.  Things are as good as they can be, I have lots of people who seem to love me.  I have things to be thankful for.  God is good, cause even Monday I wasn't able to see that.  My world changed overnight.  My circumstances are worse, but my outlook is better.  Praise the Lord.

Day Three: Gained wisdom and knowledge.

Scripture of the day:

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time.  Cast all your anxiety upon Him, for He cares for you."  1 Peter 5:6-7

Song of the day:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iOufqWodFNo