365 days with cancer

Monday, May 9, 2011

Day Thirteen with Cancer

Day Thirteen with Cancer:

Happy Mother's Day!

It has become increasingly difficult to wake up in the morning.  When I was finally able to, I got ready to go to church.  Mom and I were able to drive together since she wasn't working and I didn't have plans with  Jeremy.  I love how when mom and I drive anywhere together, we always hold hands.  She's my best friend.  Church was so great today.  Pastor was preaching on victory.  It was awesome because I had JUST spoken to my mom in the car about how even if God didn't choose to heal me, that doesn't mean I wouldn't be healed...it just wouldn't be an earthly healing...and that's still ok.  He's a God of healing.  Sometimes it just doesn't come in the way that PEOPLE want it.  Pastor was talking about how regardless of the circumstances, we have the victory.  Christians and non christians deal with the same situations...cancer, job loss, financial difficulty, marital issues, etc., but the difference is that as Christians, we don't have to deal with those issues alone.  We know that regardless of what we're dealing with, we have the Lord holding our hand.  He will never leave us or forsake us!  It must be hard feeling so alone and trying to deal with scary circumstances by yourself.  Praise Jesus that He's taken my burden!  We had a communion service and afterward I spoke with Pastor about getting anointed next week.  He said, "Yeah, that's biblical, too!"  I love seeing him get excited!  It's just a cool thing.   I spoke with a woman at church who is in the Oncology department at UH.  She was very helpful and told me to come to her if I ever had any questions.

After service, Mom, Sarah, Jeff, the boys and I all went to Steak and Shake.  Not the place I'd think of to take mom for Mother's Day, but there wasn't anyone there.  The boys kept me laughing the whole time.  At one point Jaden said out of the blue, "Did you know our blood is really blue?  It just comes out red."  He's such a goof.  They both mean so much to me.

Mom and I stopped and met Dad at Grandma's place for a bit.  She had to show me her new outfit that she wore during the fashion show the day before.  It was funny hearing her tell the story of how people were whistling and telling her how good she looked.  Awesome and disturbing.

Once we came home, I went ahead and wrapped the present for Jenny that Jason had delivered to our house and then I met my parents on the deck.  Dad had started a fire.  I laid on the reclining patio chair with a quilt and just sat there with my eyes closed.  It was so nice to feel the sun on my face.  In the next several minutes there were so many sensations that I kept going over them in my head so I wouldn't forget those moments.  The sun was bright and warm.  The wind was chilly and blew the scent of the burning wood in my direction.  Aside from the sound of the breeze, there were children laughing, a dog barking far away, the clinking of a nearby flagpole, far off wind chimes and the crackling of the wood.  It was a perfect moment.  I could have stayed there forever.  I dozed off a little bit and after a few minutes Jason and Jenny were there.  We had a great time watching Sydney discover all kinds of new things.  She's seriously so brilliant.  We had dinner at the diner on the corner and I told Jason of my fundraising ideas.  Apparently he and Jenny had been discussing doing something like that, so we ended up doing a little brainstorming together.  It was really great to have someone to get excited with me.

When I came home, I was able to contact a few people that I wanted to make sure were involved in the fundraiser.  I got some positive responses.  I ended up sending Joey Miskulin an email.  I'm really hoping that he would consider coming.  I know he's a star, but he's also a super sweet man...maybe he'd be sympathetic.  Not to mention Riders In the Sky will already be in Ohio at that time.  I'm praying for it.  I stayed up longer than I wanted to, but I am really proud at how much I was able to accomplish.  Let's hope I can do as much or more tomorrow!

Day Thirteen:Victorious


Song of the Day: Victory In Jesus
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zPyxzw1uVKQ

Verse of the Day: Exodus 15:2
The LORD is my strength and my song; he has given me victory. This is my God, and I will praise him--my father's God, and I will exalt him!

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