Happy Saturday!
This morning was lovely, as I was able to sleep in. When I chose to wake up, I got ready for the day and prepared to drive to North Royalton to see Jeremy. It makes it harder not being able to meet halfway, but since his car is dead I had no idea when we might be able to see each other next. I hit up Rite Aid and then was on my way.
Chris and Tara were going to a wedding, so we dropped Chris off and were able to take the car. Before I go any further, I want to say what an amazing boyfriend I have. He indulges most every whim of mine. I had decided that I wanted Chipotle, so that's where we were headed for lunch, no questions asked. Ok...there was ONE question. It was, "Are you sure you don't want Cracker Barrel?" I'm pretty sure he was kidding though, since we had eaten that just a few days prior. Anyway, we had some delicious Chipotle for lunch and he kept me laughing the whole time. I think the best part was when a song came on that he really enjoyed and he decided that he wanted to break dance in the restaurant. I tried to convince him that would be disgusting considering the floors were awful. Blegh.
We headed out to Amherst after that to pick his brother up from work. Rob grabbed us a couple of drinks and kept us highly entertained the entire way back to Elyria. Apparently we have far more similar tastes than I would have guessed. We seem to get along rather well. After deliberating for quite a while on what we were going to do for the rest of the evening, we decided on snacks and a couple of movies from the Red Box. We then headed toward Wal Mart and picked up some Magnum bars, chips and hummus. I was explaining that I need to start eating better after the surgery and told the boys how one book recommended a wheat grass chaser after meals. Rob said, "Wheatgrass? Oh yeah, I've had that. It tastes like someone put fresh lawn clippings in my mouth." On the way back in, there was an awkward slug mating incident and then we chatted for so long that we didn't start the movie for another couple of hours. We ended up watching the Green Hornet. It was so terrible. I'm thankful that we didn't watch it at the theatre. It would have been a total waste. It suddenly occurred to me in the middle of the movie that I wasn't thinking about everything that has been going on. For 5 whole minutes I was just a normal girl, sitting with her normal boyfriend, watching a terrible movie on a Saturday night. It was perfect. It actually made me kind of emotional.
We headed out when the movie was over, since Jeremy still had to take me back to my car. We sat and talked for a little bit. I was having feelings of guilt over the fact that it bothers me that I'm going to have scarring all over my abdomen. I shouldn't be thinking about that. I should just be thankful that I won't have to have my entire colon removed. I should be thankful that I may not have to have chemo. For some reason, I keep thinking about all the scars I'm going to have and how it makes me feel like less of a woman. Isn't that stupid? I'm fighting a terrible, life-threatening disease and I'm concerned about 7 or 8 scars on my body. Thankfully, Jeremy came to my rescue again. He reminded me that it's not STUPID to have these feelings and that no matter what the outcome, he's always going to think I'm beautiful. Now, that may not have exactly made me feel better, but it certainly was nice to hear. He's going to help me to stay strong. As we headed back to my car, we saw a sign that said "Hot Abes in Bikinis". I couldn't help but laugh. All I could think of was a 6'2" man with a beard and a stovepipe hat in a bikini...fighting vampires. Yes, I just read Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter. Don't judge. It was a really good book. Anyway...it made me giggle. If that imagery doesn't make you giggle, you have a serious problem. I started falling asleep on the last 20 minutes of the drive home, but somehow I was able to make it. The Lord obviously wants me here for some reason!
Day Twelve: What cancer?
Song of the Day: Yet I Will Praise
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_vEjt280PDo
Verse of the Day: John 9:3
"It was not because of his sins or his parents' sins," Jesus answered. "This happened so the power of God could be seen in him.
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